Good morning all! Lets go ahead and get to it - I weighed in at 320.5 today! Oh Yeah! That is another drop in the old weight department! And I will take it! I didn't work out enough last week, and although my eating habits weren't awful, they weren't the greatest either. So I am excited with a 4lb weight loss for last week! And this week will be even better! Oh, let me get something out of the way. Last week someone - WHO ISN'T EVEN A FOLLOWER, SO I REALLY SHOULDN'T ADDRESS THIS - told me that I needed to do a better job at proof reading my blogs before I post. So allow me to enlighten everyone - I am not the greatest writer, I know shocking! And I am not the best editor, again amazing! And also, I don't really proof read... ever... I generally get some thoughts off my mind and chest and post them - boom! So I actually don't go back and re-read this after I get done writing - I just post it. So if my improper and atrocious grammar skills bother you, move on! That means you powder puff! Now - lets get to the good stuff! I am feeling a major loosey goosey rumbling around down below.... I am not sure what KSTS & I ate yesterday, but I had two major blow outs last night and so did she! And they were not pleasant in the least! We ate really good yesterday and these are the kind of burning, wet, gross, etc... kind of BM's that are most unpleasant... As a matter of fact this is so pressing now that you will have to excuse me...

WOW! That was uncomfortable.... Okay! So I don't have any clue what has gotten into us, but it is sure as hell making its way out with a vengeance! MAN! That was number 5 in less than 12 hours! I am raw and in pain. I truly hope that was the last of it, cause if it wasn't - I may need a plastic doughnut to sit on!

SO! Lets get back to it... We are doing our best to get healthy! We walked just about three miles yesterday cause it was feeling good to be out and moving. Our workout last night was quite difficult - we are moving into the second phase of P90X and last night was mainly push ups - I have no idea how many we did, but it was a ton! All different kinds and positions - I swear Tony Horton, you are the man! I hope and pray that one day I will be half as fit as he is! You know what else? Lack LaLanne was an animal!  Do yourself a favor and Google Jack LaLanne - he was a stud! I am not kidding! He was an old man by the time I was of age to pay attention, but he could have still kicked my ass at 80! I am going to type up some of his sayings and some of his birthday challenges and put them up on the wall in my office to remind me that I suck and what I should be working towards. He was truly awesome and a very fit individual. You know that is what has changed in my mind set - I am no longer looking for brute strength - I still want to be strong, and when I reach my goal weight I am going to incorporate more lifting into my routine - but I just want to be a fit healthy person. I had some small dreams of competing at a strength training event, but not anymore. My goals and desires have changed - instead of picking up a car, I want to run a 5k! Instead of pressing a large rock over my head, I want to do a mini triathlon! I am serious! And lets also be honest, a 250lb 6'3" man is still a robust and stout individual! So I can do some strength training and be massive! AND FIT! I guess things just get more in perspective as time goes on.

My boss and I fly out Thursday morning for a business trip to Dallas and won't be back till Sunday. My goal is to work out like a beast while we are gone! Thursday the meeting doesn't start till later in the day, and our plane arrives around 11. So I am going to get like a solid 3 hour work out in! Some light weights, a lot of cardio, and maybe even a swim! My wife and I have a little wager going this week - whoever looses a higher percentage of weight this week gets a thirty minute massage next week from the loser. I need a good massage from my wife! So I am motivated to say the least! Healthy eating and lots of hard work! I am tired of just losing a couple pounds a week - my goal for next Monday is..... 314! OH YEAH! That's right! I haven't lost that much in a single week since I started this whole thing when I was close to 370! So I want to push myself and get my butt in gear! I can tell you that I will be walking during my lunch breaks the next couple days and really pushing myself hard during my workouts! Next Monday I will be reporting to you that I am the winner of this weeks weight loss challenge!

A sad day

Good morning all. Yesterday I received a call from my mom that her dog had a passed away. I can't being to explain how upsetting this is. People get attached to their pets every day, and it is always difficult to lose something you care for. But in my mom's case her dog was more than just a companion, she brought stability and purpose to my mom's life. My mom is a good mom, no - she is a great mom. She used to be right outside my classroom when I school let out when I was in first grade. We liked to walk home from school on days that were pleasant. She would have a thermos of sweet tea and a hug ready for me. We would walk home and talk about my day and look at flowers in peoples yards. My mom loves flowers and gardening and it meant so much to learn about those things. We stopped and spoke with a few people and mom would ask for clippings of plants so we could root them and grow them in our own yard.Those were good times and mom had a lot of good years. But like flowers there are years with blooms and years without. By the time that I was finishing with college and dad was working a ton mom had no one left to take care of. We had just about always had a pet in the house when I was growing up, but we really didn't have anything during this time. Mom had nursed her parents, but they had passed. She had taken care of my nieces and nephew, but they were old enough to be in school or moved away. My dad's mom had lived with us during her last year alive and mom had taken care of her. Mom's sister had passed away years ago, and she didn't have a great relationship with her brother. So really other than dad & myself she was alone. Liza was the answer. I found her on a doberman rescue site and we drove 700 miles round trip one day to pick her up. Liza was not the most mentally stable of animals, so she needed a lot of love and attention - mom offered that willingly because she had so much to give! During the next several years was are very rough time of transition for mom and our family in general - it was VERY rough for a while. But when mom came out of it there was Liza - still needing love and attention and mom was once again in place where she needed somewhere to channel those emotions. It was a perfect match! Mom has gotten better and has new interested and friends, and she still had Liza giving her tons of attention and love. They needed one another and helped one another in a huge way. I am so thankful for Liza - she deserves a trophy filled with milk bones for providing just what mom needed! Yesterday Liza passed away - it was a very sad day. We will be here to help mom and provide what comfort we can. But I sure will miss Liza - she was my dog too.

Well.... This is a mid week update... I am feeling pretty good about my workouts and eating this week so I decided to get on the scale... I know, I know... When KSTS reads this she is going to bust on me cause I am constantly harping on her about only weighing once a week. I am such a jabroni sometimes. Oh well. SO! I got on the scale this morning... 322lbs! Holy Cow! That means since Monday I have dropped 2.4lbs! Yeah! I don't know if I can drop another 3 lbs by next Monday, but I am going to try! I would LOVE to be under 320! I really want to be close to that 300 mark by my birthday, I would truly love to be around 299 to be honest.... I have been trying to eat low carbs, but it is truly difficult when you are also trying to eat healthy - fresh fruit and veggies have a lot of carbs! Carbs suck! I will say that days where I eat very low carbs I am hungry and my energy is low, but I feel better??? Does that make any sense - my body feels better and not so heavy or bloated. I LOVE BREAD! But white bread is pretty much the devil! I happen to work with two women who I believe are spawned from satan because they bring in the most wonderful baked goods on earth! One of them makes this fresh bread that is like freaking orgasmic! And that is no lie! KSTS has partaken of this bread and she can back me up here! Yesterday I had eaten very low carb so by the end of the day I was dragging. After our workout I was really wanting something with some bulk so I made risotto and threw in some steak. It hit the spot! I really wanted to add cheese and butter up a piece of bread to go along with it, but I was good and just let the risotto fill me up. It probably had more carbs than I should have eaten, but I think it all balanced out. Plus my weight being down this morning is a freaking testament to eating well and moving more! I always try to bring my lunch if I know that I will be around the shop and not out meeting with client, and this year I have been walking during my lunch time. I eat quickly then walk for twenty or thirty minutes. And it really does me right! I am able to clear my head and feel the outside on my skin. I used to make fun of my brother when he would walk on his lunch breaks, but now I know why he was doing it! I hate those people that are always talking about how many calories are in certain food when you go out to eat... Now I am becoming one of those people... It frustrates me that I do it, but it helps keep me in check so I pay more attention to what I am putting in my body. I am sorry if it offends someone who just wants to enjoy their full flavor meal - Believe me! I miss the taste of eating bread with 1/4" of butter on it and cheese and cookies... oh Lord I love cookies... but when I think about how it always made me feel afterward and how good I am feeling right now  I really cant imagine going back to my old ways. THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT I WILL NEVER HAVE ANOTHER COOKIE AGAIN! But instead of Mom making a quadruple batch, maybe just make a half batch - I can eat one or two a day for a couple days instead of 12 or 15 a day for 2 weeks! Even though I am still so big, I feel so much better and move so much better - I can't imagine what it will feel like to be 250! I might float away! It is exciting to think about and that keeps driving me. What it must feel like to be able to walk into a store in the mall and buy clothes right off the rack! Instead of special ordering them. How good is it going to feel to fly without overflowing out of this damn tiny seats. Those things hurt! The stupid arm rests dig into my side meat and are quite painful! It will be great to be able to sit in chairs that have arms on them and not hurt! I used to have to go to sales meetings at my old job and the chairs in the conference room were too small - they hurt for me to sit in and it was so uncomfortable, but I didn't want to say anything cause all the people I worked with would harass me. It sucks being a fat bastard! If only other robusto's out there could feel a taste of what it is like to get smaller then they would be hooked! I sure am! Alright.. I am done today - I should probably do some work since I am sitting here at work and blogging instead...