Well.... This is a mid week update... I am feeling pretty good about my workouts and eating this week so I decided to get on the scale... I know, I know... When KSTS reads this she is going to bust on me cause I am constantly harping on her about only weighing once a week. I am such a jabroni sometimes. Oh well. SO! I got on the scale this morning... 322lbs! Holy Cow! That means since Monday I have dropped 2.4lbs! Yeah! I don't know if I can drop another 3 lbs by next Monday, but I am going to try! I would LOVE to be under 320! I really want to be close to that 300 mark by my birthday, I would truly love to be around 299 to be honest.... I have been trying to eat low carbs, but it is truly difficult when you are also trying to eat healthy - fresh fruit and veggies have a lot of carbs! Carbs suck! I will say that days where I eat very low carbs I am hungry and my energy is low, but I feel better??? Does that make any sense - my body feels better and not so heavy or bloated. I LOVE BREAD! But white bread is pretty much the devil! I happen to work with two women who I believe are spawned from satan because they bring in the most wonderful baked goods on earth! One of them makes this fresh bread that is like freaking orgasmic! And that is no lie! KSTS has partaken of this bread and she can back me up here! Yesterday I had eaten very low carb so by the end of the day I was dragging. After our workout I was really wanting something with some bulk so I made risotto and threw in some steak. It hit the spot! I really wanted to add cheese and butter up a piece of bread to go along with it, but I was good and just let the risotto fill me up. It probably had more carbs than I should have eaten, but I think it all balanced out. Plus my weight being down this morning is a freaking testament to eating well and moving more! I always try to bring my lunch if I know that I will be around the shop and not out meeting with client, and this year I have been walking during my lunch time. I eat quickly then walk for twenty or thirty minutes. And it really does me right! I am able to clear my head and feel the outside on my skin. I used to make fun of my brother when he would walk on his lunch breaks, but now I know why he was doing it! I hate those people that are always talking about how many calories are in certain food when you go out to eat... Now I am becoming one of those people... It frustrates me that I do it, but it helps keep me in check so I pay more attention to what I am putting in my body. I am sorry if it offends someone who just wants to enjoy their full flavor meal - Believe me! I miss the taste of eating bread with 1/4" of butter on it and cheese and cookies... oh Lord I love cookies... but when I think about how it always made me feel afterward and how good I am feeling right now  I really cant imagine going back to my old ways. THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT I WILL NEVER HAVE ANOTHER COOKIE AGAIN! But instead of Mom making a quadruple batch, maybe just make a half batch - I can eat one or two a day for a couple days instead of 12 or 15 a day for 2 weeks! Even though I am still so big, I feel so much better and move so much better - I can't imagine what it will feel like to be 250! I might float away! It is exciting to think about and that keeps driving me. What it must feel like to be able to walk into a store in the mall and buy clothes right off the rack! Instead of special ordering them. How good is it going to feel to fly without overflowing out of this damn tiny seats. Those things hurt! The stupid arm rests dig into my side meat and are quite painful! It will be great to be able to sit in chairs that have arms on them and not hurt! I used to have to go to sales meetings at my old job and the chairs in the conference room were too small - they hurt for me to sit in and it was so uncomfortable, but I didn't want to say anything cause all the people I worked with would harass me. It sucks being a fat bastard! If only other robusto's out there could feel a taste of what it is like to get smaller then they would be hooked! I sure am! Alright.. I am done today - I should probably do some work since I am sitting here at work and blogging instead...